Resentment as a Racket: Psychology & TA | MriyaRun

Have you ever noticed how surprisingly sweet it can be to feel offended? It’s a strange, lingering sensation where you seem to be suffering, yet simultaneously feel a sense of righteousness and moral superiority over the offender. We carry this resentment like a precious crystal vase, afraid to spill a drop, waiting for someone to guess our pain without words. But why do some people explode and forget, while others "marinate" in these feelings for years? Let’s look under the hood of our psyche using Transactional Analysis (TA) tools to understand where the truth lies and where our unconscious is playing a tricky game.

In everyday life, we tend to consider resentment a natural reaction to injustice. "I was offended — so I feel resentful." Logical? It seems so. But TA suggests looking deeper. Resentment is a complex cocktail, often mixed with aggression that hasn't found an outward outlet and has turned inward, against the person feeling it.

In the coordinate system of emotional literacy, it is crucial to distinguish between two states: Authentic Feelings and Racket Feelings.

But what is resentment? It is a "dead end." It’s when a situation requires Anger (defense), but you choose to stay silent and suffer. Or when a situation requires Sadness (accepting that a person isn't ideal), but you demand they change. Resentment doesn't solve the problem; it preserves it.

This is where it gets interesting — Psychological Racket. This term describes the process where we substitute one feeling for another. A racket feeling is a familiar emotion learned in childhood, encouraged by parents while authentic feelings were prohibited.

Imagine a child. They are angry at their mother because she didn't buy a toy. But the family rule says: "You cannot be angry at mom, that's bad." If the child shows anger, they risk losing love (the basic need for safety). What does the psyche do? It finds a workaround. The child learns: if I pout, go to the corner, and cry quietly (demonstrating resentment), mom will feel guilty and come to comfort me. Bingo! The child got what they wanted (attention, strokes), but at the cost of giving up their power (anger) in favor of manipulation (resentment).

Growing up, we drag this script into adult life. We become "professional victims" who, instead of saying "I don't like this, stop it," start playing the silent game, hoping the partner will read our minds.

Eric Berne gave us a brilliant metaphor — Trading Stamps (Psychological Coupons). Just as people collect stamps in supermarkets to trade them for a frying pan later, our psyche collects resentments.

Every swallowed resentment is a "brown stamp" (a crap stamp) that we carefully paste into our mental album.

We collect these stamps to confirm our life script: "Nobody loves me," "The world is unfair".

In your reflections, you very accurately noted the desire to be understood without words, "just by looking into eyes." This is the dream of our Inner Child for an ideal mother who guesses all the infant's needs. But in adult life, this need often turns into a trap.

Expecting telepathy from a partner is a direct path to disappointment and... new resentment stamps. True emotional literacy begins where we take responsibility for verbalizing our desires.

Exiting the racket system is a hero's journey. It requires the courage to admit: "I am resentful not because the world is bad, but because I am currently choosing this reaction over direct contact."

At MriyaRun, we believe that managing your state is a skill that can be trained. Specifically for this, we have developed Emotional Intelligence Diaries. This is your safe space where you can offload your "stamps" without accumulating them until an explosion, analyze your true needs, and learn to distinguish the soul's authentic signals from imposed scripts.

Living without resentment doesn't mean being a pushover. It means being so alive and honest with yourself that you no longer need surrogate feelings to feel significant. You create your own world and your own value. Be brave — you can do it!