Shame: Anger Turned Inward. The Anatomy of a Feeling

In the context of emotional literacy, we often speak of anger as a force that protects our boundaries. Anger is an outward movement: "You can't treat me like this," "Back off," "This is mine." But what happens when this impulse hits a wall of prohibition, fear of rejection, or the inability to respond?

The energy doesn't disappear. It turns 180 degrees and strikes the source itself. This is how shame is born. Shame is auto-aggression. It is anger at oneself for "not being right."

Unlike guilt, which says "I did something bad" (an action), shame whispers "I am bad" (essence).

This feeling often forms in childhood, when the expression of the true Self (loud, messy, angry, or sexual) was met with cold rejection by significant adults. To preserve attachment to their parents, the child makes an unconscious choice: "It is better that I am bad and punish (shame) myself, than to admit that the world around me is dangerous/irrational."

Thus, an external conflict turns into an internal dictatorship.

Thanks to the work of clinical psychologists (specifically Jean-Marie Robine), we can break shame down into a spectrum to better understand it and not confuse it with other states.

This is a paradoxical state. You suddenly find yourself the center of attention—you were praised, complimented, or you simply walked into a room and everyone looked.

This is the cold pole. A toxic, heavy experience where one wants to "sink through the floor," become invisible, merge with the wall.

The situation where your friend is singing off-key at karaoke, but you are the one blushing and wanting to run away.

Shame is the main antagonist of life energy (libido). Sexuality, in a broad sense, is not just about the sexual act; it is about the drive for life, creativity, and spontaneity.

Any autocracy (whether a state or an authoritarian family) intuitively uses shame as a tool of suppression.

When we work with the topic of shame in intimacy during therapy, we are not just fixing a sex life. We are returning the person's right to be. We are unlocking the anger that once forbade them from expressing themselves.

Important: Emotional exhibitionism (the desire to shock with the nakedness of one's soul or body) is often the flip side of the same coin. It is an attempt to burst the dam of shame through extremes because normal, calm expression seems inaccessible.

Is all shame evil? No. If we completely got rid of shame, we would turn into sociopaths. Shame can be the "beneficial bacteria" of the social organism:

The problem arises not when shame exists, but when it becomes toxic—when there is too much of it, when it is disproportionate to the situation, and when it poisons one's entire life, turning it into one continuous apology for one's existence.

Since shame is born in contact (someone once shamed us), it can only be healed in contact. It cannot be lived through alone in a room—there, it is only amplified by rumination.

The cure for toxic shame is legalization (bringing it into the light).

This article is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to emotional literacy. Very soon, I will be releasing my new book dedicated entirely to the subject of anger.

Writing this book became a unique opportunity for me to explore anger from the inside out. For a long time, I kept a daily focus on this emotion: attending masterclasses, webinars, and courses, analyzing infographics, and devouring books on the subject. I debated with teachers, engaged in deep self-reflection, and attended live group therapy sessions to personally experience the stages of developing strength through anger.

Initially, I planned for this to be a simple brochure and was even disappointed when I realized that I couldn't fit everything into such a small format. However, this has allowed me to share with you not just combined deep knowledge, but also my authentic personal experience.

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